Ah, Sweet Redemption

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“But everything exposed by the light becomes visible, for it is light that makes everything visible.  This is why it is said:  ‘Wake up, O sleeper, rise from the dead, and Christ will shine on you’.” Ephesians 5:13-14

Another line of storms heading through the area tonight.  I hate storms in the night.  I’d rather be able to see something coming in the distance than wake up to have it right on top of me because I didn’t know it was coming.  Granted, I know it’s coming, but I’m not going to be able to watch it’s progress in the sky for a few miles till it gets here.  I’ve posted my thoughts on life with a radar or something like that before.  Tonight, I just want it to be visible.

Ever had an “aha” moment?  You know, the moment where you finally realize what may be going on.  I had one the other day. I was making plans for a trip to Catalyst Dallas in the near future.  I was pretty excited about it, too.  All of a sudden my conscience starts speaking to me.  Um, What about getting-out-of-debt-thing first?  Isn’t that what we’ve been working on for so long?  I thought you were passionate about this.  Do we need to go over this one more time?

But I rrreeeaaaalllllyyyy want to go!  This place is going to be rockin.  Oh, aanndd I’m going to see a friend there, too, so really I’m going to this awesome conference and getting to see a friend so it’s a joint venture.  Well worth the money.

Yes.  It may be worth the money, but what is our biggest goal here?  You’re going to be able to see your friend any time you want once you have no debt.  And this conference?  They have it three times a year in different parts of the country.

But Bianca Juarez is going to be there, and she’s thinking of having this coffee meet and greet thing that I really want to go to.

Yeah.  I act like a little child in my head.  Sometimes A lot of the time it even works its way out.

What a lot of things are coming back to at this point in my life is this:  Is this a necessity?  Is this a priority?  Or is this something I’m just wanting to do?

God has been blessing my real estate business tremendously these past few months.  I guess Fairfield hasn’t got the memo that we’re in a recession.  I don’t know.  I love it.  I’m thankful for it.

I feel like I’m kind of on the verge.  Of what, I don’t know, but still on the verge of something.  This new project I’m working on combined with other things happening in my life, I just feel expectantly restless.  I feel like God is saying, Hey.  We’ve been working on this debt thing for a few years now.  That part of your life was a product of your depression in that season.  You’re not there now, so why is this stuff lingering?  You’ve had opportunities to make great strides at it, and sometimes you’ve made the right decisions.  Sometimes you haven’t.  But I’ve got other things in mind for you.  And they’re coming soon.  Let’s get this taken care of so there’s nothing holding you back.  You ready?

Am I ready?  Most days, yes.  I’m actually pretty stoked. (can you say that without being a stoner or former stoner?)  Some days, honestly, it scares me to death.  This place I’m at right now at this moment is a good one.  I’m happy here, happier than I’ve ever been.  To imagine changing some dynamic of that scares me a little.

Do you trust Me?

Ouch.

Want to talk a little bit about our Redeeming God?  By July 2 if all closings happen according to plan, I will be debt-free.  Through all my brokenness, all my complaining and all my impulsiveness, God is bringing me through.  And I am so thankful.

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  • Are you from Fairfield, CA?

    I know EXACTLY what you mean about the debt. My husband and I have been on that same goal for the last 3 years and, God willing, we will also be debt free by this fall.

    Press on, girl, our LORD is FAITHFUL!

    • Thanks for the encouragement!! Let’s get it done! You have to let me know when it happens. You know I’ll definitely post about it!!! Yay, God!!

      • Indeed! YAY GOD! ^^

        You never did tell me if you’re from Fairfield, CA?

  • Not California. I live in Southern Illinois. Most days California seems oh, so nice, but I love being a Midwesterner!!! Are you originally from CA?

    • Ahh I see. Yep, I’m from FAIRFIELD, California! Funny, huh?

      • That is too funny. How big of a town is it? We have about 5,400, and it’s very rural. Lots of corn and bean fields.