On Being Present…Presently


Last week was Catalyst.  I loved just about every minute of it.  There were a few things that I’m still trying to figure out and a lot of information that I’m digesting and turning over and over in my head.  There will be more posts in the following weeks. I’m pretty excited to share some of it with you.

What I can tell you is my initial thoughts on what I got out of it the most.  I haven’t been really present in my own life for a while.  I’ve been here, but not engaged and involved, and it makes me sad.

I want to do too much.  In my mind I can do all these things, so why shouldn’t I?  I can work an extra 30 hours on top of my regular 40-hour week.  And actually physically I can do that.  What I’ve found, though, is that I feel completely disconnected from everything and everyone I love.  I called my friend on evening as I was driving home and just told her I called just so I could hear her voice.  My best friend.  I hadn’t spent any quality time with her in weeks.  I was there.  But I wasn’t present.

So I’ve got to slow down.  I’ve got to learn to say no.  I’ve been selling out.  Money speaks to me, and if I can make money doing something easy, then I would have probably at least attempted to do it.  And maybe I’ll still be busy, and maybe I’ll still be gone more than I’m home, but I will be doing things I love and things that I can give 100%.

So with that being said, I told you in my videos last week that I would be announcing a new project.  Actually, now, I’m going to announce two new projects.  Don’t worry.  This is stuff I’ve already been doing.  I just haven’t told you about it.

Announcement #1.  The reason I’ve been writing the My Story Monday series is that for a while I’ve been working on writing a book.  I have an outline.  That’s about it.  But getting that far was a HUGE step.  The premise of the book will be what this blog is about.  The Esau Project and the ways we’re not living out God’s best plan for us.  The things that have impacted me the most in my life have been what I’ve been writing about on Mondays, so, theoretically, everything in the book will tie back to that.  At least that’s the plan.  Whew.  I’ve been keeping that secret from you for months.  I feel better now.

Announcement #2.  I’m starting a new blog.  Everything will still stay the same here on The Esau Project.  The new blog will be pretty different.  I said in my birthday list that I would run a half marathon in Nashville on April 28, 2012.  This blog will be focusing on that experience and the training.  I’m working with a trainer here in town, and you’ll hopefully hear from her as we go along, as well.  The site’s not up and running yet, but I would guess within the next week or so we’ll have everything up and running.  The video camera was bought for the purpose of going on workouts with me and on my runs and so forth.   And honestly, I’m going to focus on the humor in all of it.  The name of the site will be Run With The Big Girls, and I honestly am really looking forward to having a lot of fun with this one!

So that’s how I’m planning to be present.  I’m going to slow down.  My time with friends and family will be quality time.  I’m doing to do things I love and am excited about.  I’m going to take care of myself and do something that will make me proud.  I may not like where I’ve been, but I can love where I’m going.

How would you apply the theme of “Be Present” to your life right now?

Any suggestions for the new projects?  Any advice?

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  • TorConstantino

    Outstanding news Julie! I think your book idea is brilliant and will resonate with many believers – I know it does with me. Also, I’m anxious to track your running blog as well!!!

    • Thanks, Tor! I’ve been pretty excited about both of these for a while. Just had to find the right time to announce, and today seemed like the day. What was your biggest issue in writing your book? Mine seems to be just getting started right now. The outline was a huge step, so I’m going to try and keep up that momentum!

      I can’t wait for the new blog. I’m hoping to make it pretty darn funny!

  • I’m super pumped about this new blog.

  • Oh my goodness. I didn’t really think about it in this perspective, but I recently made a commitment to fully step into my own life this year. For years, I’ve been trying to figure out what I am supposed to “do” in this life, you know, find those “big plans” that God has for me. But, in all that searching and frustration, I’ve been missing what’s right in front of me – my kids and my husband. So, I’ve commited to God my life, in a new way. I’ve decided to stop worrying about the future entirely and to be in the moment where I am right now, even if it’s not glamorous and extremely visible. But, I do plan to blog about where I am because I think a lot of mother’s especially Christian mothers struggle with being “valid” servants of Christ, even though it feels like all we are doing is laundry :o)

    I LOVE your book idea. I can’t wait till it’s published. You will do a killer job at it!

    As far as the new blog, I would really enjoy that, too. I love to run, but I’ve never run a marathon. Time is something that I have to spend wisely and, unfortunately, running is about #28 on the list of things that I must get done in a day.

    Can’t wait to see what happens!!!

    • Sara Groves – Just Showed Up For My Own Life “There are so many ways to hide. There are so many ways not to feel. There are so many ways to deny what is real. And I just showed up for my own life. And I’m standing here taking it in and it sure looks bright.

      Gonna live my life inspired, look for the holy in the commonplace.”

      Love that song. Love what you’re doing, Judy. Be in the moment ’cause before you know it those moments will be gone, never to show themselves again.

      • I love that song. I love that woman! Thanks for the words, girl :o)

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  • I like you Julie. You have a hunger to break out of the status quo. Keep moving forward with the writing and running!! Push push and push some more. You’ll be surprised what you can do. Cheering for you 🙂

    • Thank you so much, Connie! I love the book idea on being a Culture Rebel! Can’t wait to get my hands on a copy of your book in a few months! Thanks so much for stopping by!