I’m A Plant Killer

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My boss just recently bought another business in town, and everyone in my office has moved down to the new office because there’s more space and to keep the two business separate.  So that leaves me here at my office all alone.  Which I’m really okay with.  I have plenty of foot traffic.  I work with a couple other agents who come in regularly throughout the day to pick up keys to show homes or bring me paperwork.  And I worked by myself for 7 years in my home.  I get a ton more accomplished.  I’m way too easily distracted.

The problem I’m running into, though, is that they didn’t take the office plants with them.  It seems as though my green thumb is mainly black.  I killed three cacti in college.  Keep in mind you only have to water them once a month…and I did it…and they still died.

Total black thumb.

In fact, I don’t even notice the plants until one morning, like today, when I walk in and they’re all wilted and just about to die.  I head straight for the watering container, kicking myself the whole way because I hadn’t thought to water them before they got to this point.

I heard once that the way you keep your house is the way your keep your heart.

I think I might be in big trouble.

I keep house my own special way.  I put things off and wait until I can hardly stand it anymore to start the deep cleaning process.  OR I wait until I’m having people over and make my home look presentable so my friends don’t think I’m a complete slob.

I put on a show.

My house is a mess.

My heart’s a mess.

If I would do a little every day as just regular maintenance, I wouldn’t ever be slightly embarrassed for someone to stop in and catch me with a messy house.  If I would water the plants in the office a couple times a week, they wouldn’t be on the brink of death every couple weeks.  If I would pay attention to my own messiness in my heart and feed it with good things every day, I wouldn’t have to put on a show.

Honestly, the hardest thing in my spiritual life is to sit down and read my Bible.  I have struggled since day one.

When I do, my life is more organized.  Everything runs better.  My heart is getting cleaned and that makes me function better all around.  But when I don’t, that’s when the acting starts.

This blog is about me selling out.  About my God-given future taking a back seat to my own selfish desires.  I think this is the root of it all.

My heart is to continue to grow, but just like the plants that I keep on killing, it will never happen if I don’t get to the root of the problem.  So here’s to watering the plants in the office, and here’s to watering the messiness of my heart.

Do you hate cleaning as much as I do?



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  • I’m pretty sure that you’ve, uh, smashed my toes this morning. I am not a “keeper of the plants,” either! Doesn’t matter if I follow the instructions or not, they seem to wither on me.

    At this point in my life it’s not so much that I hate cleaning…I just find it quite useless. Why? One word: children. I can clean all day and not accomplish a thing because I seem to be picking up the same thing OVER and OVER and OVER! However…my heart is a mess, too. Your blog reminded me of C.S. Lewis’ “Voyage of the Dawn Treader” book. One of my favorite scenes from the book is when Eustace has to be “stripped” of the dragon he’s become by Aslan. It is done layer by layer…and those layers hurt coming off. I’m in need of Aslan.

    Love you, friend.

    • Oh, man, I love that book. I think I’m going to go home and watch the movie tonight. Love you, too, my friend. Oh, and from what I’ve heard, Aslan is on the move 😉

  • Amy Book

    you should try one of those little water globe thingys. You fill it up about once a week and it waters your plant for you. So far it’s working for me.
    As far as a slow feeder for the life inside of me…well, i’m not sure there is such an easy solution. I know it starts with deciding and ends with deciding. 🙂 Why is it that that decision is so hard to make sometimes??
    Love you!

    • Dena has extras she’s going to bring me. Yay!! Deciding. I’m pretty indecisive most of the time unless it’s a 100% spontaneous decision. I usually never really regret those. Hmmm…gonna have to do some thinking…

  • Typtyp1

    Yes, I hate cleaning and it shows unfortunately. I would much rather be outside or out doing anything else! The peace lilly up there…my experience is they must be watered from the bottom…you may already know this.

    • I did not know this! I’ve killed every peace lily I’ve ever had! Needless to say they don’t bring me much peace after a week or so…

  • Debbie

    YES I DO! One of my goals is to have someone to clean my house, even though I am currently a SAHM. As far as reading the Bible, I totally get it. That’s why I listen via the One Year Daily Audio Bible pocast with Brian Hardin. I’ve now “read” through the Bible 3 times and I am forever changed. I started out listening while walking on the treadmill, but I also listen when I’m doing laundry, putting on makeup, washing dishes, etc. 🙂

    • That’s one of my ultimate goals, too! Ha! Unfortunately I don’t retain as well listening as I do reading. I love audio books, though. Fiction I can do on audio. Something I’m trying to learn from? Nope. Oh, well 🙂