There are a lot of questions I can’t answer. There are millions of unanswered questions and random worries and thoughts that could haunt me every night if I let them. Sometimes I do. Sometimes it’s just easier.
I haven’t been sleeping well lately. That usually means I’ve got a lot on my mind. Sometimes it’s worrying about a friend going through something. Sometimes it’s my family that I’m thinking about. And sometimes I’m just trying to beat my high score on Bejeweled Blitz. Whatever the case, I’m still not sleeping well. And I’m pretty sure at it’s root it doesn’t have anything to do with my high score.
Do you ever feel like you’re on the outside looking in at your life? Is this really who I am? These people are my friends and family? Why has God chosen to bless me like this?
We both know how completely undeserving I am.
Is it because I feel so undeserving that I’m walking around with this half-hearted attitude lately? Is it because I’m worried about something that I can’t quite put my finger on?
To be perfectly honest with you all, I just don’t know. Even now as I sit here writing (a process that usually clears my thoughts and leads me closer to the answers), I just don’t know.
So could you pray for me, friends? Maybe I just need a good night’s sleep to clear my head. Maybe a need to go for a long run to get the cobwebs out. Or maybe I need to find a beach and a drink and just lay there for a while.
But maybe I just need to be still and listen.
How can I pray for you?