When We Wonder Why

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When horrible things happen, it’s hard to know how to react.  There is anger and pain and sadness.  There is guilt and questions of why.  And we really just don’t know what to say or do.

He is jealous for me.

And we wonder if it’s just something that happened or if it’s all part of some ultimate plan.  It’s hard to imagine that something horrible happening in our lives could be from a loving God.

Loves like a hurricane I am a tree

And the load gets heavy as the questions start to pile up.  We try to figure out one of the hardest questions in the universe.

Why?

Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy.

And it’s hard when we don’t know why.  Some questions will always be left unanswered.  And the only comfort that we have is that throughout all our pain and fear and guilt and anger is that God is still there.  And sometimes it’s even harder to remember that He is still good.

When all of a sudden I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory.  

And we struggle to make sense of the trial.  And sometimes we just struggle to make sense of anything.  Because it hurts.   And through our pain it makes it hard to see what’s real and how any of this works out for good.

And I realize just how beautiful You are 

And words won’t help right now.  Songs won’t bring much comfort.  The hugs of friends and the closeness of family seems so distant and hard to imagine that it will ever feel right again.  It feels like a part of you is missing and that you may never be whole again.  And maybe that you don’t ever want to be whole again.

And how great Your affections are for me.

Slowly we start to feel again.  We realize sometime down the road it was love that has healed our wounds.  It was love that left the scars.

Oh, how He loves us, oh.  Oh, how He loves us so.

In your pain today I pray that you ask the questions and seek the answers.  I pray that in your anger and hurt and fear that you reach out to someone just waiting to wrap their arms around you.

And I know you might not feel it today because the pain is so great.  But I pray that you won’t shut the doors completely.

He’s here.

And He loves us so much.

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