Are You Available?2
Today I was supposed to finally get DSL Internet installed at my home. Up until this time it was unavailable where I live because the DSL cables just weren’t out in the country that far. I’d tried to get wireless at one point, but all roads leading away from my home go uphill, so that leaves me in a valley surrounded by trees, which evidently is not good for a wireless signal. But today there were supposed to be at my house between 8:00 a.m. and 6:00 p.m.
I mean, really. I get needing some cushion space. Appointments run late. You run into unexpected problems along the way. But 10 hours? I find it hard to believe that a person can’t keep a schedule within a 4-hour time span. That’s what the Dish Network guy gave me when he came to install. What makes the phone company any different.
But then they didn’t even show up.
Honestly, I’m just glad I didn’t take the day off work. It’s just frustrating to think that I’m sitting around waiting on people to set this up, and I have absolutely no idea when it’s going to happen now.
I hate not being able to control a situation. I always have. I want to know how it’s going to happen and when it’s going to happen. And if I could do it myself, that would even be better, in my opinion.
But lately I’ve been making a serious effort to just sit back and relax. Let the others who are planning events, do their thing. I’ll be involved if it’s something I feel like I want or need to be involved in. If it’s not, then I’ve been sitting back and taking the time off.
It’s kind of freeing really.
I feel like I have more time to focus on the things that are really important to me. A line I read in a book the other day describes it perfectly, but I’m just going to paraphrase it for you. I’m taking the time to be me…not who I should be, but who I am.
I want to commit to the things that interest me and not the things that I think should interest me. We get sucked into this idea of who we should be and forget to figure out who we really are. So I’m on this journey. It’s a long journey, but it’s a good one.
So, yeah, I’m keeping busy. But as physically busy as I am, it seems as though my mind is more available, if that makes sense. But, seriously, if I don’t get to you within 10 hours, you need to sit me down and have a talk with me.