Unexplained Absences


'Love' photo (c) 2007, jm scott - license: http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/2.0/I left you hanging.  I’m sorry.  Because I know you wait eagerly every Monday and Friday morning at 5:00 a.m. to hop out of bed and read my new posts.  But I didn’t post.

Really, though, I’m not so sorry

See one of my twin nephews contracted some sort of infection and was sent over to Cardinal Glennon in St. Louis.  It was actually a pretty emotional week.  But they’re home.  He seems to be doing well.  We were playing in his living room just a few hours ago, and he was smiling.  They both were.  Man, I love those faces.

This past week was my birthday.  I always make a big deal of my birthday and give stuff away, but I couldn’t be here and be with my family all at the same time, so just know I’m always going to choose them.  I’m sorry, but that’s just going to be the way it goes.  But I did something cool a few months ago for my birthday.  I read about a site called Future Me.  Basically, what you do is you go in and write an email to yourself and then set the date to email you sometime in the future.  I chose to send it to myself on my birthday.  However, it’s Sunday night and I just sat down to read it.  I thought instead of our regular birthday bash here on the blog, I’d just let you read what I wrote to myself.  I promise we’ll do a giveaway sometime, but right now I’m mentally drained.

Hope you enjoy my birthday email to myself!

Dear FutureMe,

Just so you know, it’s your Jesus Year. You’re 33 this year. Jesus saved all mankind when he was 33. He wasn’t around too long. His grace was too radical for people to accept, so they killed Him. And more than likely you’re not going to be crucified on a cross, but I want you to focus this year on grace.

Grace so crazy and love so deep that people think you’ve lost it. I want you to really try to figure out this love thing. The unconditional part is going to be the hardest thing you’ll probably ever do, but I want you to dig deep and try.

I want you to show grace above and beyond what you’ve ever done before. You’re going to feel like some people don’t deserve it, but then neither do you. And you’ve been forgiven. So you must forgive. Always forgive.

But I also want you to remember that Paul felt the hurt when someone offended him. Don’t ignore your hurts, but always forgive. And there are times it’s going to really suck, but I believe you can do it. So do it.

You’re changing your life. You’re living an incredible story. I believe that this year may be the key for your journey for the rest of your life. Get ready to hustle. I know you’ve been working hard for a while, but that’s just working hard. Hustle is working hard with a purpose. And this is your Jesus Year. I think Jesus hustled, so you’re gonna, too.

Your life is going to change dramatically this year. I can feel it.
Whenever you get knocked down, get back up. Whenever you feel like you can’t go on, take one more step. Whenever the hurt is too much for you to handle, gather your friends and ask them to help you.

And speaking of your friends, they’re awesome. Don’t take them for granted. Love deeply.

And your family? They’re pretty incredible. Choose grace and love in every situation.

And don’t forget to love yourself. You give grace easily to a lot of people. Give it to yourself, too. You’ve been forgiven and you are loved. Don’t ever think differently.

You’re going to get out of debt this year. You’re going to hustle to do it. Your future is going to hinge on your ability to go and do, and if you’re in debt, you’re not going to be able to go and do. Hustle, hustle, hustle. Work with a purpose. Work hard with a purpose.

You are doing a great work and cannot come down. Don’t be distracted.

So I guess that’s it. Unconditional grace and unconditional love. They’re going to change the world. And you’re going to play a big part in it. Get yo hustle on, girl.

Cheesy?  Yep.  I’m okay with it.

If you had a chance to tell yourself something in the future, what would it be?

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  • Michelle Woodman

    I keep meaning to send myself an e-mail via Future Me’s site, but the silly thing is I worry I’ll make these plans, not follow through, and then be disappointed all over again when I read said e-mail. (A sad, but true, story.)

    I’m so very glad your nephew is okay! 🙂 And a belated happy birthday from me to you! *<):-)

    • I tried to avoid making plans. I don’t think I said anything specific, so hopefully awesome will be the theme. 🙂 You can do it!!

      Thank so much!

  • cath

    SO thankful your nephew is ok. I think this was inspiring, Julie! We need to believe that God can AND will do amazing things through us if we allow Him to work and we do our part. Love you!

    • That’s why I love the story of Nehemiah and why I quoted it in my letter to myself. Such good words. Thanks, Cathy. Love you, Friend!!!